Last night I was fortunate enough to attend the Dayton, Ohio book tour stop for Let’s Pretend This Never Happened: A Mostly True Memoir by The Bloggess, Jenny Lawson. Let me start by saying that Jenny Lawson was wonderfully entertaining, super friendly, and all around AWESOME! Dayton, being the lamest place on earth, was the one and only stop on this book tour or the last to tell Jenny she wasn’t allowed to curse.
She did a Q&A session afterwards and I asked what advice she would give to my daughter who is away at college and struggling with anxiety. Her response: ‘tell her she rocks for even having the courage to go away to school, I didn’t, and pretend you’re good at it.’ She then went on at length about building a support group and being open about having a mental illness and although my daughter wasn’t able to go to the signing with me, when I passed the advice along she smiled, nodded, agreed, and then was super bummed that she missed the signing.
As to “pretend you’re good at it” Jenny explained that this was advice given to her by Neil Gaiman (OMG!!!) and that she writes it on her arm before every speaking event. This will totally be my next tattoo.
After the Q&A we got our books signed. Since I preordered to get the signed book plate for my hardcover and I won her blog contest for an autographed audiobook, I decided to pick up the paperback for my daughter and Andy. When I told Jenny the book was for my daughter whom I’d spoken about, she added “you rock!” to the signature. Very cool of her.
Then it was photo time
And I even got a hug from Copernicus. 🙂
So yeah, it was AWESOME!
I passed the bar and was sworn in but am not being offered a position at the firm I’ve been working at because the attorney market sucks and they can’t afford to hire me. I am welcome to stay on as an overqualified paralegal as long as I want though, because I do good work.
I am trying to be brave and am going to hang a shingle and work my butt off on this venture and the small retail business that I am taking over part ownership in and hope for the best. I have asked my supervising attorney for a letter of recommendation and plan to send some resumes out, but I am not holding my breath that they will yield a position anywhere.
Compounding things is the fact that it is going to cost me another $300 to be registered so I can begin practicing. All of my student loans have come due, and I just got a letter from my daughter’s school saying I have to cough up $4700.00 in the next 2 weeks. Andy is stressed from having supported me for years and seeing no end in sight and I’m having nightmares.
Earlier in the week I dreamed we faced either eating one of our dogs or dying of starvation. Last night I dreamed I got home late for board game night with my guests on my heels to find that Andy was rearranging the house. As the dream went on t became clear that he was doing so in order to move me out and move someone else in. This all happened while I had guests who were complaining that there was no food and no music.
So as scary as it all is, there is really nothing else I can do at this point. I’m cutting back to part time at my current job, sending out resumes, applying for GAL appointments, applying for adjunct teaching positions, and hoping beyond hope that I can make something good happen before Andy gets completely fed up with me never being home and not making any money. It sucks but I don’t see that I have any alternative.
So that’s how things stand with me. Anybody need a lawyer?